moving out

It's been such a long time since I last wrote here, maybe everyonw has given up checking...but, I am back! Tonight I am moving. The last term at Pendle Hill finished last week, and on Monday we farewelles the last batch of people until I go. I have two more weeks here, and will be working in the kitchen here and will also be doing some work in Philadelphia at the offices of Friends General Conference (FGC) doing some stuff to help with their Summer Gathering, which I will be attending in July in River Falls Wisconsin.

I have to move to a different room for my last two weeks here, which kind fo sucks and is kind of ok. It's good to have to touch everything I own here, and to realise how much stuff I have accumulated while I have been here. I have got most of the stuff out of here, and now just need to rearrange the furniture and take the last things off the wall, which I am avoiding doing. This is the last night I will sleep in this room and in this building, and I have to get up at 6am tomorrow to work!

I have had an amazing time here. I have just read my affirmation book that people wrote notes to me in last week, it was quite a task to write in everyone's book, there were nearly 45 in total! The last time I left Pendle Hill, in 2001, I also had an affirmation book, and that made me cry, like this one did. But last time, my tears were partly because I felt like people hadn't really seen me, like I hadn't really let myself be seen and known. That was hard and really important for me. This time, I feel much more seen. I know that I have been brave this year and taken risks, and let people see me and I have really seen people here. I need to keep moving and take some more things off my wall and move some stuff to my new room...maybe I'll write more, now that the year is ending, as I am processing and reflecting on this experience...maybe she says...